Hello, my name is Vanessa and I am a big old quitter.
But seriously, I have always througholy enjoyed blogging, writing, photographing, designing, and just the general making of things. I pull a lot of life out of being creative and productive, and this may come as quite the surprise due to my extremely regular posting over here, but a couple of years ago I sort of just quit everything. This was not a purposeful and healthy choice of taking a step back and getting a little break, which some of you most likely really need to do! This was a "I never fully commit to much and just sort of fizzle out" type of deal. I wish I could say this is a new thing for me, but it most definitely is not. I can't think of many things in my life that I've stuck with or worked hard at, ever. This is completely at odds with one of my stronger traits; I am extremely stubborn. You'd think that would make me not give-up! Or maybe I am stubbornly committed to laziness. Well it turns out not doing anything with yourself is not the best idea.
Now sometimes quitting and knowing when its time to put something down can be a great and wise thing. For example, I dropped out of college very close to being finished and graduated. I was going to school to be a teacher, not because that's what I genuinely wanted to do, but mostly just because I didn't know what else to do and going to college is just what you're supposed to do. Well I am so glad I didn't go through with that. It's a great and awesome profession for so many people, but I still know now that it wasn't right for myself. Now that's not to say I instantly had a new plan for my life, in fact, I'm still trying to find that!
Obviously I've had some major life changes in the last couple of years, namely the whole becoming a parent thing. I had a more unpleasant second half of pregnancy and a wild time with the whole labor part, so I happily took a couple months of doing nothing but taking care of and hanging out with a cute baby all day. The couple of months sort of stretched out and like 18 months later, here we are! I'm not expecting to have a jam-packed and full-time work schedule, I wouldn't trade the privilege of getting to hangout with Remy all day for anything! I am, however, not saying that as a stay at home mom it has to be one or the other. It's so important to still have stuff and time for yourself, whether that means investing time into a hobby, work, exercise, etc. I personally am not doing any of that and that is not healthy. If I'm not doing mom duties, I can probably be found rotting my brain away with bad TV and browsing on my phone. Now sometimes at the end of a crazy day, that is just what the doctor ordered! At the middle/end/peppered throughout the whole day? If the doctor ordered that, you need a new doctor. None of this is to say that I am just miserable, because that is most definitely not the truth! I have an amazing family, great friends, an awesome home, a perfect dog, and live down the street from the best ice cream shop. But I have ideas, creative desires, books I want to read, things I want to learn. Suppressing all of that has started to affect my quality of life and quite literally my health (you can imagine how much I exercise currently!). That's not the kind of example I want to set for my daughter. I want her to see that working hard and sticking to things is good, to take ideas and dreams and see them through.
To be honest, it does all sound just a little bit intimidating at the moment. Maybe I need to decide on what some of my big dream goals are, and start setting little everyday goals to get me there, wherever "there" is. So I do solemnly swear to blog and make dresses every single day, forever. Just kidding. But I do hope this means you will see more stuff around here. Hopefully that sounds like good news to you, if it doesn't I assume you wouldn't be here reading this still. So here's to healthy and productive days!
p.s. forgive my probably very jumbled up ramblings, I probably need to brush up a little on my writing skills