Hello friends! I have a confession: I am addicted to lattes. Well, I have been keeping my new habit under control, I only have maybe one a week. Mostly that's because I would be poor and living on the streets if I had one whenever I wanted. But let me just tell you... it sure isn't a false stereotype that Portland does coffee right. Shoot. The wondrous creation shown here is a vanilla latte from Barista and it was TO DIE FOR.
We are finally getting our bedroom put together, no more living with piles of crap all over the floor. Ha ha, I'll have to get a picture while its still crazy looking.
I have another confession: I have been struggling with a few things pretty much since we've moved. I would like to point out that I'm not saying these things to get compliments or attention, but just to be honest. I've been feeling completely overwhelmed with those 'what am I doing with my life' and 'let's compare myself with everyone else' thoughts. I think every one of us thinks those things once in awhile. This isn't the first time I've let those feelings drag me down, but its the first time I've let them drag me down for so long. Comparing yourself to other people can morph into this ugly, evil monster. You can start doubting and putting yourself down about everything you do. All of the sudden everything around you seems like something else you're doing wrong. A clean house, a perfectly productive day, working out, etc... those are all things everyone but you has down perfectly. Once those thoughts start rolling everything is affected. Instead of "oh darn, I didn't exercise today like I wanted', it turns into feeling defeated and giving up before you even think about putting on some running shoes the next day. But I say enough of that! No one is perfect, everyone has less than great moments. The only choice is to just keep going and not worry. I found something I absolutely love to do, sewing and photography, so I am going to keep doing those things and work as hard as I can to grow those interests. There sure as heck will most likely be someone else out there who is more successful and more talented, but that says absolutely nothing about what you are capable of. We need to be happy and excited over others successes... that is the type of person I always want to be.
My biggest goal is to love people. That sounds like a simple thing, but I want that to be the filter I do and see everything through. I'm not sure what that looks like exactly, but I do know having self defeating and envious thoughts won't get me there.
If you read this, congratulations for surviving my rambling! This kept almost segueing into completely different topics, multiple times, so this may not be the most coherent post ever!